I have come to be fraught with controversy. I don't seek attention: I do justice. I recently learnt of the death of a woman I have known for a long time. She was called Chika nee Udensi. We got to know each other in Aba where we were both (then) members of the Mormon (used interchangeably with LDS) Church. Chika was a returned missionary of the Church, as I later became one too. She at one time helped me get my first job after the University. It was at Hotel Terminus in Aba where we were both telephone operators. I only worked for a few months before I left in September of that year (2004) to begin my National Youth Service Corps in Oyo State. I learnt a few years later that she had got married to her longtime boyfriend who wasn't a member of the LDS Church. Therefore, she left the Church to be with her husband.
After Hotel Terminus and NYSC in Iyana-Offa (Ibadan, Oyo State) I shortly left for the USA. I had requested to serve as a missionary volunteer for the Mormon (LDS) Church for eighteen months. This missionary work is not compulsory for women but young men of adult age (19 years at least to about 25 years) were encouraged and seriously expected if not required to fulfill this mission. It helped the Church in its expansion and retention of new members. It wasn't an easy ordeal. You probably have seen them, those young men and young women of impressionable age who walk around the streets trying to teach you one or two things about The Book of Mormon and Joseph Smith. They may be as annoying as Jehovah's Witnesses missionaries but they are usually cuter, dressed in white shirts and dark trousers for the men. The female missionaries dressed in conservative attire. They were modest and in many ways unassuming. But what you wouldn't know is what these missionaries experienced on their missions out of public view. Many of them come from poor homes. They are the ones who are naturally bullied by the others. This is not about the inhumane treatment some LDS Church missionaries experience at the hands of the so called companions. I'm not interested in talking about that here. It's worrisome though because cruelty is still wickedness. Nobody should respect an institution that has canonized racism - the Mormon Church has through the Book of Mormon.
When I left for the USA to serve as a missionary in 2005, over ten years ago now I was fertile and expected to come home, marry and raise a family. Prior to this, I had earned a Bachelor of Arts degree in Igbo from a University in Ibadan. I was intelligent but unhappy. I had also ended an emotionally abusive relationship with a military officer during my NYSC in Ibadan. It was a fantasy relationship now that I think of it. He wasn't ready for marriage he was a chronic womanizer (many of the married ones were not to talk of the single ones among them). After the bitter experience, which I erroneously "confessed" to a "Bishop" who had no business listening to me, since I was a member outside his jurisdiction, he offered me a shoulder to cry on. I come from a history of abuse and all you can think about (mothers don't believe they were abusive in many ways while probably trying to discipline). It has grown in me seeds of resentment and bitterness - that much I can confess. But I have been honest, telling the truth where it had to be said, not in being selective with truth telling but being discreet. I talked to this gentleman about things that I should have kept to myself, including the abusive relationship that I had with the military man. He was very sympathetic and I was comforted. In the course of our conversation, I informed him that what was called "Patriarchal Blessing" of mine mentioned something about me preaching the gospel and I wondered if that meant that I should do a mission. This was in Lagos. I returned to Ibadan to complete my NYSC and decide whether to do the mission or not. I decided to do the missionary volunteer work and started processing my papers while still in Ibadan doing NYSC. I spoke to a white man who was the mission president and he felt impressed with me. After the POP (passing out parade) in August 2005, I returned home to Aba to await my mission call which could take me to any part of the world.
A few months later I received a phone call (from the Bishop) that I had been called to serve (or do) my missionary work in the USA in Salt Lake City, Utah. I had mixed feelings. I liked the thought of the USA and the new things I would experience there but I was afraid of being a victim of racism. I knew about racism and how black people had a bad reputation among the white population and add to that Nigerian, I would be in trouble. I went for a visa interview in Lagos and I successfully secured entry to the USA. Come November 2005, I left for the USA. Many thought I was lucky; in fact I was also envied by many members of the Mormon church. I would never believe what would happen with that decision to go on a mission. I seriously regret it today. For one thing, which is one thing I'm talking about here, I may as many other missionaries been given medication (in drugs or shots) that would reduce my fertility. I did routine vaccination before I left for the USA. I did Yellow Fever vaccination and did my teeth and checked out my blood and urine.
I was asked to proceed to the Missionary Training Centre in Provo, Utah where I was given shots one of which I was told was a flu shot. I did other shots. I had a yellow fever card, which had the vaccinations written there. I didn't know what they read; what I know is that the card wasn't returned to me when I eventually left the USA at the completion of my mission in 2007. When I arrived Temple Square in Salt Lake City where I served for 20 months (18 months officially and extra few weeks) in 2005 I was asked to turn in my passport (with my visa) and the vaccination card (yellow fever). In Provo, I was given a drug to take, which I was asked to take in front of my companion (the young white woman with whom I served). The said drug was supposed to help me adjust to eating Caucasian diet. Well, there was no African markets to buy egusi and ukazi so it was OK to eat oyibo food. Why the white girl had to supervise me taking medication annoyed me but I complied. You don't do stubborn girl when you are working for God. But this only saw that I would be the subordinate companion, which I rejected sternly. I was as amicable as possible but not unnecessarily permissive.
I returned from my mission in 2007 to find my menstrual cycle irregular. Of course I blamed so many things for it including the cold weather. I have had painful period since I started my menarche over twenty years ago. It's lingered but it was particularly worse in cold climate for obvious reasons. My blood congealed, well I don't know. On my return, I discovered that a few of the women who had done missionary work at different times and different places had issues with infertility one of who was Chika (nee Udensi). If you are Mormon in Aba, look around and start counting. Yes, there are still a few who got married and still had children of their own. But when there is a steady increase among female (even male) returned (ex) missionaries of the Mormon Church who are infertile (unable to have children) it makes me wonder: is the world watching while the LDS Church sterlizes its full time black missionaries and covers it up? This is probably punishment for them being on "life support" for 18 to 24 months they did missionary work.
The Mormon Church requires its missionaries to sponsor this full time volunteer experience. However, the truth is that many black families cannot afford to do so. They send off their sons and daughters on this mission (sometimes blackmailed into it through the Patriarchal Blessing) or mandated to do so as in the case of the men. I now call it "family financial aid" - families have their children fed for two years and this decreases the pressure at home. This makes many parents grateful to the church and can never see it go wrong in anything. I tried talking to my mother about my suspicion and of course she came to her Church's defense. What do you expect, the devil knows how to cover his tracks. The Church would give her a post and expect her to honour them with her support. She cannot go against them even if the evidences are compelling. I have been given anti-psychotic drugs in my own house with her blessing. As educated as she claims to be she doesn't know that these kinds of drugs are unhealthy and have adverse effects. I believe that she is conspiring with the Mormon Church to keep me sterilized. Nobody cares that I speak the truth, that the LDS Church is evil. No, I was denied the church jobs because I called them corrupt, which they are. Calling them corrupt doesn't mean investigating the allegations of corruption but forcing me down and injecting me with drugs that I know nothing about. Ask Francis Nmeribe and Charles Ekwuribe. They are their agents and leaders of the Church. My mother is ignorant. She with other members of my family is wooed with transient positions which emboldens the religion in its wickedness against me. I don't respect her gullibility and it's evident in my asking to be removed from the records of the Mormon (LDS) Church over two years ago. Instead of honouring my request, many members of that church annoy me by still calling me SISTER. Imagine the absurdity of that. I don't like it and I have been rude to a few of them in the streets.
I know many of these women whom I believe may have been sterilized during their full time missions. Many of them are in the employ of the Mormon Church and would not want to speak up if this were investigated. Many have resorted to adopting children instead. I can count over seven women and a few men that I know of. My desire to be married has been sabotaged on many fronts. I laugh when my mother talks about what her fellow church members say about Mormon girls who want to get married to their church brothers. Both men and women backbite to destroy the relationships leaving many of the girls single while the men go out to marry non members. They call it convert and marry, which eventually brings in more members to the church. I call this hypocrisy because the women are expected to marry from among the membership and really being Mormon is bad market. It's a hard sale. It's easier for the men to marry and convert than for the women to do so.
Chika had married outside the LDS Church, as I know. She left to worship in her husband's church but returned to the LDS Church afterwards as I saw her in the church building on a few occasions when I worshipped before I left finally. The last time I saw her was in a First Bank branch in Aba and she said she hadn't seen me in Church for a long time. I told her I had quit membership with the LDS Church over two years ago. She was unhappy with me and asked to have my cellphone number so we could discuss my issues with the church. I refused her having my phone number because I didn't want to say annoying or insulting things to her in my explanations. My decision to leave the Mormon church was eternally final and nothing was going to change it. (I had recently been asked if I was interested in some Mormon men for marriage, that's how insulting that religion is so I quit giving them audience). Perhaps to many I left the church because I was over 30, educated and single. If married to one of them I would return, they probably reasoned. Sorry, brother I had since crossed the Rubicon. Chika would not have understood my plight or my pity for her inability to conceive a child. I wouldn't know the circumstances of her death, but I knew she was unhappily looking for a child. Would Chika have had a child if she hadn't served a Mormon mission? None of her step sisters did missions and they are all married and have children. What about Felicia B, Martha C, Patience U, Linda I, Jennifer (nee O), and I (yes I'm single and I'm trying to conceive) and the others who waited many years to have children or the ones who have had stillbirths? Is this a mere coincidence that I haven't mentioned the names of the women including Chika (and ) who might have been judged and denied having a child? Don't just ask the Mormons, they have their alibis ready any day. Of course, there are barren women in other churches too. Here, I'm bringing my education and experiences to bear. I can't just look at religion making itself God, judging people and sterilizing them. Men acting for God - the wickedness of it all is mind boggling. This is wrong. Many did missions to be given second chances, not because they needed humans to act as God; but used the service to make amends. They are continuously judged even past their missions when all has returned to normalcy.
Nobody wants to hear the truth. No, they laugh about the fibroid, the believable STIs, the alleged abortions, and turn a blind eye to the possibility that a church is sterilizing its black members and using the guise of missionary service to do it. I believe this isn't true, but if this is true that Chika (nee Udensi) died of complications owing to infertility, I would blame the LDS Church. There is more to this than meets the eye. People won't talk, they have jobs to protect, families to honour, wages to earn, and lives to protect. Meanwhile, come tomorrow (6/12/2015) somebody who knows of this evil is going to stand on their pulpit in that Aba conference and tell the gullible and complacent congregation that they need more missionaries. Yes, the white race is at war with the black race. What place to wage it albeit subtly than in religion? Whether the LDS Church has come to stay or not is not the question. It has seen its worst days. They believe that the better days are ahead and that include giving it the opportunity to wage war against the dark skinned children of Beelzebub.
I have done psychiatric hospitals as a result of my missionary and personal experiences. The LDS Church sees that I get those injections. One day I might have to sue the Mormon Church (if I survive this) if any member of that church lays his filthy hands on me again to pin me down and give me a shot without my consent. They got away with the last one in February after my family ganged up on me. This is a church that keeps dropping undesirable elements on us. If a bad and dirty job is to be done, leave it to the Njokus. If a member family's property is to be used, they should be the fortunate donors after all their daughter did a mission to the USA. But at what cost, nobody cares to know. You may take it that I'm out of my anti-psychotic medication or I'm a victim of a foolish and gullible family that keeps giving its all and receiving nothing but Greek gifts from a religious system that's as stratified as any occult. Nobody is going to investigate the deaths of people owing to their missionary experiences. Chika is gone and another is next.
Note: LDS/Mormon Church is The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
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